Stir Crazy

I haven't posted in two years, but it certainly doesn't feel like that long.  Viv was only 6 months old, and I had recently gone back to work after maternity leave.  Today, Viv is 2 and our new Ellie girl is 4 months old.  I'm staying home with the girls, and in a lot of ways, I feel like we're right back where we were when Viv was tiny.

I was just starting to feel normal.  Viv has been getting to be a lot more independent in a lot of ways and is so much fun, so it seemed like a great time to add another!  I'd forgotten how hard the first few months can be, but we are starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. 

I am cooking dinner again.  Today, I'm taking them both to the grocery store by myself.  Little things, but things that make all the difference.  It was so easy for me to go into hermit mode, even before I had the girls, but now with babies, it's even easier.  It's a lot of work to get out of the house and sometimes I don't know if the effort it takes is worth the fun we get out of it.  But two weeks ago, I was about to go crazy.  I was feeling trapped and sad and contemplating going back to work to be able to feel some kind of normalcy again.  So last week I got brave and took the girls out every single day.  We went to the park, we went to the Heard museum, when it was cold we just went to Target.  It helped me so much.  Viv was happier because she wasn't cooped up,  and I was happier too.  I didn't have to pretend to be Simba, or Mickey, or whoever alllll day long, and she got to run around and play.  Win win. I left the girls with Josh for the first time and went out with Lindsey for her birthday.  We have a babysitter lined up for next weekend.  Look at me go!

Normal is coming.  I can feel it.